When Sleep Becomes a Portal: Moments from Swar Vandana - Oct 1 Session
"I feel like I kind of blocked them away. I put the whole thing like my mom's passing away specifically in a black box and put it away."
This is what one participant shared during our last Swar Vandana session. And what unfolded next was nothing short of transformative.
The Mystery That Emerged
Last week, we explored something rarely written about: where do we go when we sleep?
The session revealed that sleep isn't just rest—it's a mystical phenomenon. Between 3pm and 3am, our consciousness turns inward, returning to ourselves. This isn't theory. Participants experienced it firsthand.
Voices from the Journey
X's Discovery:"There were online layers, more than just grief of my mom's passing. This resentment for her having left me when I needed her... It was an ongoing dialogue between me and her kind of, 'I didn't do this for you. I am sorry I didn't do this for you, but I'm also sorry that you didn't do that for me.' A lot came up and it needs to be addressed rather than just suppressed."
The breakthrough? She hadn't just found her grief—she found a way through it.
Y's Realization:"I just get more aware of myself, and that's what I'm looking for. I understand myself. There is something inside me and I just have to clear that out."
The Mother's Reflection: When asked about the dialogue on teaching children the science of sleep, one participant said: "Why not start with parents only? Unless they see us practicing that, they don't follow it. That's what we did with our parents."
The wisdom passed down through generations—we are the lamp that lights other lamps
The Turning Point
When A joined, struggling with months of unrestful sleep despite sleeping 7-8 hours, something shifted during the practice. The mind that was "active most of the time" began to settle. The dreams that disturbed his peace started to make sense.
The key? Understanding that sleeplessness isn't just a sleep problem—it's accumulated hopelessness stored in the body, like coins in a piggy bank.
What Actually Happened
Through a simple practice called OTB (Observing The Breath), participants:
- Wrote down events that gave them hopelessness
- Witnessed their breath without trying to change it
- Allowed suppressed emotions to surface and dissolve
One participant who thought they were "too positive" discovered layers of helplessness hidden beneath their need to stay strong. Another realized their fear wasn't about survival—it was about judgment.
"So that kind of thing to do, potentially... write it in detail and do the OTB. There is a lot of grief just stored inside, which you rightly said you haven't addressed."
The Science Meets the Sacred
As one participant beautifully connected: "I could connect Bhagirath in that way—you have to understand the science to make it happen. And that's where, then what sir is teaching... the science."
Bhagirath wasn't just a devotee who prayed. He was an engineer who understood the science of bringing the sacred river to earth.
Wednesday, October 8th, 2025
Our next Swar Vandana session happens this Wednesday.
What makes these sessions different isn't what we teach—it's what gets unlocked when we practice together. When one person witnesses their grief, permission ripples through the room. When another acknowledges their helplessness, others find courage to do the same.
Before you join: Watching the Swar episode deepens the experience exponentially. One participant noted how the dialogue about children stayed with them, reshaping how they see their own patterns. Another connected the concept of lighting lamps—Jyotsi Jy'ot Jy'ot—to the practice of clearing emotional clouds to reveal the sun that was always there.
Not a Solution, But a Portal
This isn't about fixing your sleep in one session. It's about discovering where your consciousness goes between 3pm and 3am. It's about understanding why 300 million cells regenerate every moment in your body, yet somehow the process gets interrupted.
"Sleep is a process which is given by nature which regenerates us automatically naturally. If we are able to sleep properly, then there is nothing that can come between your health and your well-being."
The question isn't whether this works.
The question is: what would change if you witnessed what participants witnessed last week?
Swar Vandana Session
Wednesday, October 8, 2025 | 5PM IST
Watch the Swar episode beforehand. Come with your pen and paper ready. Come with your hopelessness acknowledged, not hidden.
The piggy bank doesn't empty itself. But when you learn to witness what's inside, something remarkable happens—the clouds clear, and you remember the sun was there all along.
